I’m not lonely

I’m not lonely…

I like sleeping alone…

On this big bed…

With no one to disturb me…

I’m not lonely…

I go for movies alone…

My popcorn’s mine to eat…

No one to whisper annoying gibberish into my ear!

I’m not lonely…

I like kids, from a distance…

I suppose they are cute when they aren’t creating a mess…

I don’t have to worry about the hormones and weight…

I’m not lonely…

I shop alone…

And I’m done in a jiffy…

Who wants to listen to what you think of this dress when you won’t be here to see it?

I’m not lonely…

I have books….

And music to lose myself in…

Till I nod off…

I’m not lonely…

So what if my mom’s the only one who’ll pick up my call every single time?

I am my best friend, I take care of me…

I swear…I am not lonely….


This is a shout out and a hug to anyone who is feeling lonely at this very moment. You are not alone. Loneliness is a global epidemic and it is not good for anyone to feel they have no one to talk to – so get out of your comfort zone and interact with other people! Go attend meet ups/go for plays/go to the gym/attend a hobby class…do something to break the ice and eventually – you will make friends. One of the best ways to make friends is to volunteer. :)

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Love,

Ladyhawk!!

P.S. Check out this book if you haven’t read it. It is a good one!!

Your Photograph

Your photograph…

I kept it on my bedside table,

When true love seemed like reality…

And not something that you’d read about in a fable…

 

Your photograph,

It was my screensaver,

My wall paper,

Yes I was a starry eyed – gazer…

 

Your photograph…

Was in some old folder…

I’d open it when something reminded me of you…

I’m sure now you look much older…

 

Your photograph…

Is now in the trash can…

In tiny little pieces…

For you, are no longer my man!

 

Its the only way to move on…

To say goodbye to the things that remind me of you…

While I can’t erase the memories…

I can always get rid of…

Your photograph


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I am also recommending stuff that I like so if you are into fiction try out this book by Erin Morgenstern. It is for those who love fantasy with a little bit of romance thrown it! Cheers – let me know what you think!

 

Missing

You are missing from me…

I wish I could make you see…

That every place with you in it..felt like home…

And now I can’t find it…no matter where I roam…

I miss everything…

Your smile…your big, honest eyes…

I wonder if you miss me like I do…

These feelings are misting up my eyes…

I miss talking to you about the things that I love…

I miss ranting about the things that I hate…

I miss being your rock and talking sense into you…

And being there for each other when our hearts were about to break…

I miss drinking with you…

Listening to lame pop music on a loop…

I miss our random plans…

And how we could chase away each other’s blues…

I deeply regret how things ended…

In my own way I tried to mend it…

After so long I am scared that you forgot me…

For you were one of the the few who really got me…


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I am also recommending stuff that I like so if you are into fiction try out this book by Richard Bach – another personal favorite that talks about having faith in yourself, the importance of forgiveness and that being persistent pays off.

Winter is Coming….Hahaha

If you haven’t seen the latest season of GOT – don’t read this!

I thought the third episode was…well….it was….(deep sigh) damn annoying!!

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Winter is coming, they said…

Hyped up the fear of the dead…

All I saw was the Night King beaming…

I was looking forward to more beheadings and screaming…

smiling

When did Dany become so uncool…

And what was up with Theon, running towards the Night King like a fool?

Bran’s blank stare was getting to be a bore…

And they ended it with with a girl who was in the process of settling a score…

dead king

I was laughing out of frustration…

For seven seasons they built up our expecations…

Of how the white walkers were the baddest of them all…

Who gets the Iron Throne now – let’s see where the chips will fall…

cersei

I personally am tired of Cersei and her smirk…

And of how creepy Varys is, in every shadow you’ll see him lurk…

But I don’t see Jon and Dany having a happy ever after…

I hope the ending of this season doesn’t result in more frustrated laughter…


Sincerely,

Ladyhawk

 

 

I want to…

Someday,

I want to…

I want to write a book…

About love…an ‘eternal’ love story…

I may even throw in a crook…

And make the readers hate him…

Berate him…

I want to write from my heart…

And make you feel the way it does…

When the lovers in question are apart…

I want to make you writhe…

In agony and pain…

I want my words to make you ask…

The author to show some restraint…

Someday I want to…

I really want to write something that will touch your soul…

And if it makes you wistful and sentimental…

I would have achieved my goal…

Someday, I really want to!

 

 

Who am I to you?

Am I anything at all…To you?

Do I mean something to you…Or not?

I haven’t heard from you in so long…

So it’s safe to assume that you forgot…

 

Sometimes I really want to hate you…

Like now, I’m nearly there…

It eats me up from inside…

To know how little you care…

 

You’d be fine if we never meet,

Again…

And I’ll be dying from the very thought of it…

And the pain…

 

You used to like the attention…

You used to like being adored…

But somewhere down the line…

I guess you got a little bored…

 

While I struggle with these feelings…

And try to think straight…

You’re probably thinking of someone else…

Or out on a date…

 

Who am I to you?

The answer is not one I want to hear…

But to you I’m nothing…

That’s the only thing that’s clear…

 

 

The Inner Critic

It’s like an unwelcome guest…

This voice in my head…

Always whispering to me the whole day…

And even when I go to bed…

You are worthless, 

You are no good,

You’ll always be alone,

God! It makes me feel so misunderstood…

It makes sure I don’t eat much…

It makes sure I don’t sleep…

And when I feel like I’m finally going to be happy…

Up on me – it suddenly will creep…

Talking doesn’t help,

Medicines make my head foggy…

I want this voice to vanish…

Stop haunting my dreams, making me feel all groggy…

I realize it has to stop…

I have to drown out this voice…

With a louder, chirpier, happier one…

A voice of my choice…

You’re doing great!

You’ll be just fine…

You are loved and appreciated…

I feed myself happy lines…

Drowning out the inner critic…

The demon inside…

Acknowledging life isn’t so bad…

It’s time to live it, no need to hide.


Dedicated to a friend of mine who has been going through a rough time. It is about time we recognize that a lot of people around us are depressed – and that it is quite likely that we will be depressed at least once in our lives. Mental health is very important – do not neglect it and do not beat yourself over small things. Life isn’t meant to be perfect. It is a journey – enjoy the highs and get some support during the lows. Learn to take care of yourself and if you can’t – its okay to ask for help.

Love,

Ladyhawk

 

 

When its time for you to go

Misty eyes on a cold morning,

Memories flood in without a warning….

Of a better time…

When I didn’t give a dime…

Or worry about what the future would hold…

Of the weight of responsibilities when you grow old…

I walked through the park, sat on the swing…

Back then, life was good when you didn’t have to worry about a thing…

Your parents kept you safe and sound…

Your heart, body and little soul since they were always around…

Someone to lean on, someone to trust…

Someone who cared and over you, fussed…

As you grow old, with each passing year…

Your heart becomes a bit colder with each passing tear…

You see others for what they are…

You want to change, you try to raise the bar…

But deep down inside you already know…

You’ll be all alone when its time for you to go…

 

 

 

 

Farewell, My Friend

Farewell my friend,

It’s too late to make amends…

I can’t be the one to always stretch my hand…

Your silence is now too hard to withstand!

Farewell, I wish you well…

I know you don’t care, as far as I can tell…

But someday you will think of me…

I’ll pop into you head…You’ll see…

I wonder then, what you will feel…

In those few moments of your life that my memory will steal?

My laughter, how I always felt like home?

The way I turned everything into a poem?

Coffee, old monk on the rocks?

Movies and senseless talks?

A confidant, a friend in need?

Someone who inspired you to write and read?

Whatever I was, I tried my best…

Thought we’d be friends till the end..But you left like a guest…

So farewell my friend, this is goodbye…

I give up, no longer will I try.

 

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Mad Love

From the moment that I lay eyes on you…

You made my heart flutter!

Goodbye confidence, good bye common sense!

I never knew that I was capable of a stutter…

Your eyes were full of mischief…

Your smiled because you knew…

When you asked me for a dance, took my hand in yours…

I was already on the way to falling for you!

You were everything I wanted…

I thought of you day and night…

At times I thought my heart would burst…

Yes indeed, such was my plight.

I would melt in your arms…

Like clay…

Perfectly content to be there…

All day…

And when we were apart…

I’d pine for when we would meet next…

I could feel the pain in my chest…

Till I’d see your ‘I’m back!’ text…

Love like that…sets you on fire…

Makes you silly, forget all reason…

You are lucky if you have it for life…

Or even a season…


If you’ve never felt like you’ve been hit by lightening then you have missed out.

Peace out,

Ladyhawk