Disclaimers first – this is a work of fiction.
I lay in my bed for a long, long time.
I did not know the difference between day and night.
My eyes would open when they were tired of being shut.
And they shut when they hurt from all the crying.
I heard the sound of a siren and jumped out of my skin. I rushed from my bed to the window, my heart hoping it was you. It had to be. HAD TO BE.
The police car whizzed by in a blur, just the way you did.
‘You are beautiful….I can’t believe this.’
I could remember that night so clearly, the night when I realized that I was gone. Gone – man – GONE!
You ran your hands through my hair and kissed me, murmuring sweet nothings into my ear. My flimsy satin dress was flying up and there I was, holding on to it with both hands to keep it down while you devoured my lips like a hungry beast.
I was sitting on the edge of the window of your hotel’s balcony – we were so high up that I could barely see the ground. I should have been scared but I wasn’t.
No, with you I could be wild, impulsive and free.
You sat down next to me and we kissed for what felt like hours, your hands holding me tight. Your big, manly hands which made me feel so safe.
I could feel my heart racing, so could you…for you placed your hand on my chest and laughed mockingly at how fast it was pounding.
We looked into each other’s eyes…a rare intimate moment…the intensity was so sizzling I couldn’t bear it.
I traced my fingers around your jawline…around your scar which you proudly claimed was won during a nasty knife fight with a felon. You thought it was ugly but I loved it. I loved that smile that you had but it made me feel afraid. It was a smile of victory for you knew you’d conquered me and it scared the shit out of me.
But you had managed to break through all my walls…and the feeling of being so vulnerable made me giddy.
When I felt your lips on my neck I knew I was in trouble.
Trouble all right.
I shook my head, forcibly stopping myself from reminiscing.
I wish now, I could find a way to fight this malady…
To be continued……………